Une Vie Compliquée: 5 Parts Gin, 1 Part Vermouth Mk II

Saturday, December 18, 2010

5 Parts Gin, 1 Part Vermouth Mk II

I woke up this morning feeling strangely powerful, like a breath of fresh air had refreshed my entire body overnight. I feel like I can do anything; I don’t know why, but I like it. I still have two finals and a paper to go but they don’t scare me a much as they did these past few days. I’m steaming along full speed ahead.

I think I’m feeling good because things have just been going right lately. I think I’ve found my niche and group of people who I feel comfortable around, I’ve made good progress on work and I’ve gotten my priorities straight for the most part. Yesterday I got lunch with Glee Guy for the first time and we just chatted the whole time, it’s was casual and fun in a let's-get-to-know-eachother way. He has a great smile.

I’m heading home tomorrow after my Psych exam to a much anticipated three and a half weeks of relaxation and friends I haven’t seen since August, to say I’m excited would be the understatement of the year. I’m mostly looking forward to home cooked food, my dog and being able to have a kitchen to myself again. Cooking had always been my favorite stress reliever and how I pass my time,so now with so much time I plan to be cooking up quite a storm.

*fun fact: I started this post around noon before my calc final and it’s now after 1AM*

I just got back from hanging out at a friend’s room; we had a martini night and I had one very dry martini which was nice but I’d like to try a sweeter version for comparison. My roommate joined us which I was very happy about since he hadn’t really done much with people from the fourth floor much so it was a good casual way to break the ice and meet some of my friends and people from our floor. He seems to have changed in the past few weeks, he’s mellowed out a bit and seems happier. I have a feeling it could have to do with the fact that he's been hanging out with old friends lately with whom he can act normally around, he's been talking about acting genuine and true a lot lately so this helped a lot I imagine.

I need to study for another hour or so before I go to bed so I’ll end this here.

One more final to go, I can do this.

All the best,

JP

Glossary

Some people I mention in this blog:

Maria - My best friend since kindergarden, I know almost everything about her and she about me. She was the first person I came out to and has been the rock ontowhich I go to when things get rocky in life. She's the only person I can actually speak completely open and frankly with. I don't know what I would do if I never met her all those years ago.

M - A girl I became friends with freshman year of high school, we've become very close friends and continue to be to this very day. We are surprisingly similar personality wise and value each other's opinion very highly. I can talk freely to M almost as much as I can with Maria. She currently attends an ivy-league university up north; I'm really glad we met all those years ago and can only imagine how my high school years would have turned out if we never met.

Miss X- Foodie, blogger, photgrapher, one of my best friends, and someone who can have a delightfully dry sense of humour. We met early on in high school and have been friends ever since. We often go on adventures accross NOVA with our little circle of friends which are occasionally recounted here on this blog.

Christine- Friends since we could barely ride half the roller coasters at theme parks, Christine is a magical being who is one of the few people I could and would talk about anything with for hours on end. She's currently spending much of her time in NYC though we still see each other very often. Her dramas sometimes make my drama seem like childsplay.

Mark -A former dorm mate, and now former crush. He came out as bi to me and Maudry one night which he has been increasingly comfortable with. He's tall, has short brown hair and used to play football. He's ambitious and looks to make a big impact in the world of Politics in the future. I have had a crush on him and we've gotten together a few times. I thought our relationship could have been something more, but in the end it will end up staying as a friendship. I hope only the best for him.

Liz - One of best friends at school. She's funny, charismatic and is someone who I can tell almost anything to. She's friends with Maudry, Mark and is part of the first floor crew who I love and frequently visited during my freshman year, we're still great friends today.

Matt - My now former love, hate, drug, everything. I met him back during my Sophomore year and the crush I developed on him that stuck for the longest time. He's tall, has brown blond hair and the rare but desirable "serious but funny" personality that makes me melt. He also has probably one of the best smiles of any guy I know. He was one of the captains of my high schools cross country team. For quite some time I've tried to end this obsession over him but everytime I seemed to make progress, I'd relapse. He's a great guy but in all liklihood he's straight.

Southern Charm (aka SC) - A guy on the crew team who had moved up from Florida during my senior year. He's charming, tall, and slim with brown slightly wavy short hair. When I first met him I got the thought that he might be gay, a thought I quickly suppressed. Since then, we had become pretty good friends. My friend Jess has a crush on SC. One evening on a car ride home, my friend Dutch told me she thought that SC might be gay, something I had repressed in my mind for months, but was pushed to the front of my mind again. He's now a freshman and is study engineering and comp sci in university.

Ben - A guy I had the pleasure of knowing for one of the best weeks of my life during a cruise over the summer. He's a bit shorter than me but was also a senior who runs cross country. We got to know each other pretty well and had many conversations during that week that I will probably never forget. He has brown hair and the most beautiful light brown eyes. I'm pretty sure he's straight but i couldn't help but get the feeling he could have been bi. He's mostly in my summer 2009 posts.

Dutch - My friend who I met during my junior year on the crew team. She's a fun great person to be around and is someone I could talk about anything with, especially during the private car rides back from practice. We both know of all the crew drama that goes on.

My Family - A network of people who I love with all my heart despite their nuances, quirks and often ridiculous practices. Apart from my mom, I haven't told anyone I'm gay and probably won't for a while. They're not ready for that and don't need the added stress.

Various Single Lettered Friends (L, T, K etc)- Friends I got too lazy to actually come up with an alias for (I gave up after five, how sad haha). They are usually someone from my close group of friends some of which I have come out to. We have a very mutually supportive relationship that fosters great bonds between us as a group.

**Names Changed to Preserve Anonymity**

Saturday, December 18, 2010

5 Parts Gin, 1 Part Vermouth Mk II

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