An Explanation

Okay, well, I don't know how many people will find this as I abruptly changed the name and URL of my blog but nevertheless I should explain what's going on.

Well, yesterday someone who I did not want to find my blog stumbled upon it. When I discovered this , I decided that I must "vanish" in some way, thus I moved my blog to a new location of sorts. Now, because of how Blogger is set up, former links to my previous blog have been cut off and the old URL is now dead. Technically it says all my old subscribers have followed over but things are harder to figure out and believe than they appear so I have a feeling many old subscribers are not actually receiving updates. (maybe I'm wrong)

Apart form yesterday's little debacle, life has been pretty good. I got my Math Level 2 SAT II subject test score today. For those who don't know how the SAT system works, multiple choice tests are based on a 800 point scale with the highest being 800 and the lowest possible score being 200. I took the Math Level 2 test back at the beginning of October and I thought it was somewhat difficult and my hope was to score at least a 720 or 730, something at least close to my initial SAT Math score. SO, lo and behold I literally danced around my house when I found out I got a 750. I was happy not only because I beat my goal score, but also this means I am done with standardized exams!

Again, I apologize for the sudden disappearance form my old blog and the sudden move to this location but it was needed in order to protect my own thoughts from those who I would rather not read my ramblings. But to end on a lighter note, Halloween is coming up and tomorrow I'm going to school dressed as a Pirate so I need to go prep my costume now.

Have a Terrifyingly Fantastic Halloween

All the best,

JP

F*ck!!!!!

problem, major problem. initial plans to study for two tests tomorrow have just been completely killed and blown out of the water. fuck fuck fuck!

Okay, someone who will not be identified has found my blog, so I changed the URL and title but things have gotten really messy right now. I'm considering deleting this blog but I'm hesitant to at the same time. I have no idea what to do now.

Homecoming Part Deux and BFs

I promised I would go into greater detail as to what went on during homecoming so here I go- As I said dinner was good, ableit service being rather on the lethargic side and we arrived at the school around 9:30. For the majority of the dance I was with my crew group and for the most part the music wasn't that good (what's new?) but occasionally a few danceable songs were thrown in. It seemed this year turnout was smaller than in previous years but one thing that was the same was the heat and humidity. Our homecoming is held in the school gym and needless to say an over 40 year old air conditioning and ventilation system is not going to cope well with the amount of heat and sweat of a gym full of moving teenagers. Also, let me just say, what the hell happened to actual dancing at a dance? The majority of the people were in grind trains or were packed so close together you could count how many eyelashes someone has (wtf was that analogy?)Later on in the night people started to leave so things quieted down a bit, the final two songs were Mr. Brightside by The Killers (totally my 8th grade jam) and Don't Stop Belivin' by Journey, a rather strange ending slow dance in my opinion. But overall, this was a pretty cool homecoming, the only thing which could have made it better would have been if I had a date but I'll discuss that later.

Now that I've come out to someone in my family, I'm making an attempt to come out all the way at school. Apart from the dozen or so who already know, I don't think if it has gotten out yet eventhough I've told everyone that I don't really care if people know anymore. While finally almost coming out at school feels great, one thing that I really want/is bothering me is my lack of a boyfriend. As most of you know of my love for someone named Matt, I'm trying to get across to myself that I'm 92% sure he's straight and that this will get nowhere and that I'm wasting my time. Needless to say this is proving to be rather difficult (I've liked him for almost two years now >.<) so maybe I should take things one step at a time and get over him before I make any new moves no matter how long it will take.

The problem is that at my school it's particularly difficult to find any other gay or bi guys mostly because the ones that are out are not who I'm looking for and all the others are either in the closet or I just don't know they exist. My bit of applied statistics in a previous post worked out about 7 or 8 gay/bi guys in my senior class, I forgot whether if I included myself in that or not. Even so, I only know of three gay/bi guys in my class which leaves over half either a mystery to me or are in the closet, all statistically of course. So I'm stuck, really, none of the guys that are out appeal to me and all the others can't be found. I know that maybe I should open up my mind and look at those who I know are out, but even with that things still don't' work.

So, have any advice? Things aren't really in my control but I really want to be in some relationship before high school ends, don't want to sound needy or anything, it's just the truth.

All the best,

JP

Homecoming

So Homecoming was a blast, hyper humidity, semi-deaf ears, sweatiness and all. In the end, the homecoming race was really close but another guy beat me to the HC King win. But good thing is, the guy who won is a really nice person and if I were to lose to anyone it would have been him; he isn't a jerk like many of the other guys are so it was all good in the end. This whole process was probably one of the most memorable experiences of my high school career, and even though I did not win, I did manage to get a free HC ticket($20 value!) and a sweet sash out of it lol.

After pictures at one of my friend's houses, we went out to dinner at a local Italian restaurant which was really good but service was kinda slow that night, the veal parmigiana I got was really tasty. We ended up arriving a little late to the dance but still managed to have a ton of fun. I won't comment too much on the dancing but let me just say that most of the dancing that goes on at high school now is really going beyond what is socially acceptable, literally, if things went just a little further, it would be "straight up fornication" in the words of my friend Kirstin. I generally hung around my group of crew friends in the end as well as the German exchange student who we invited to join us (funny lad, really) and I honestly believe we had the most fun out of everyone at the dance. (details withheld until next post)

Okay, so I'm going to cut things short and cut out other details of my rather busy weekend and other things that went on during HC for now. I'll go into greater detail in my next post but I need to go to bed as I have a government test tomorrow, sorry, night y'all.

All the best,

JP

Sex on Wheels

-4.8L V10 Engine

-552 BHP

-Carbon Fiber Chassis

-202 MPH Top Speed

-6 Speed DSG Transmission

-The sound of an F1 car

-All for "only" $375,000 (or a decent house for that matter)

-This really is sex on wheels.

Lexus LF-A *love*

I'll be finding out who won HC King and Queen tonight, I'll report back in a few hours. Wish me luck ^_^

All the best,

JP