Pantsless

So I spent the better part of last night at a Grilling Society party with no pants on....and tonight, I'm going "bowling with the gays" on a University Pride organized group bowling trip...

...I plan on owning all of them hehehehe.

Actually having free time leads to such good life choices.

Also, I kinda like Jessie J's new single...it's a little too Katy Perry ish for my tastes but still quite catchy.


Jessie J - Domino

On another note, I had a dream all about Mark last night and not to get me wrong, it was a great dream but I'm baffled as to why he would feature as the "lead role" in one of my dreams at this time. I woke up this morning with a very strange feeling in the pit of my stomach, kind of a mix of confusion and nostalgia. I'm probably looking too deeply into it as I often do...

Any inputs and thoughts?

Also, I've been looking for some new workout songs. I've been cycling through essentially the same playlist for the past month and a half and I'm starting to get bored. I like newer music (post 2004) and something that I can blast and keep my energy up when running/erging/lifting etc. All suggestions are greatly appreciated.

Plase excuse my extravagant use of ellipses and the word "also" in this post, I really didn't feel like thinking of other transition words.

Have a great weekend,

JP

Final Stretch

Weekend Update:

Friday: (repost)
-went home and got dinner with Maria at Eden Center
-We ate at this Vietnamese restaurant, the Pho was okay, kinda bland but the spring rolls were delicious
-Bought asian desserts and banh mi sandwiches at a bakery and made crude jokes
-went back to her house, we watched a Brazilian telenovella dubbed in Spanish that takes place in India
-All I know is that a train exploded and there is a misidentified body involving a polo player
-We then watched Ghost Hunters, not creepy at all and I fell asleep on her chair
-Went home, fell asleep on the couch until 4AM and then crawled to bed

Saturday:
-Got a hair cut and went back to campus
-Studied for my accounting exam for a few hours and then got ready for an International Relations Club formal
-Met up with some friends on the first floor and headed over to the venue
-I ate half my weight in chocolate, there was a massive chocolate fondue pot
-Danced to a mix of top 40, techno and dubstep until 11
-Went back to my dorm to take a break and then headed to the afterparty
-First batch of jungle juice was disgusting mango flavoured stuff, the cranberry one was much better
-Ran into Liz and a few other people, Prefrosh accepted applicant overnighters were with them
-Found out the kid was also going to be in the Business School, score!
-Was getting pretty tipsy, my friend A was pointing out all the gay guys at the party
-Got some beer from the keg, did a sake bomb
-I was pretty drunk and enlisted the help of A to help introduce me to this one guy, I find out he's a senior
-Aborted the plan in the end, he was kinda short (shorter than me)
-Went out to get 2AM pizza, I bought two for some reason being the fiscally responsible drunk I am
-On the walk back I complained how the business school has the stigma of being lazy bums which is totally not true and annoys the hell out of me
-Get back to the dorm and devour the first massive slice
-I go to bed

Sunday:
-Wake up and immediately start studying accounting for my exam Monday
-Studied more accounting, and more, and more
-And more.
-Went to bed...exciting day, I know

Monday:
-Woke up early and took the practice exam again
-Skipped my Ethics to study a little more
-Went to Sociology only to find out my really nice but teaching inept professor talk about her rabies bitten cat being finally let out of Katine after six months tomorrow (Tuesday)
-Accounting was cancelled because of the exam so me and a few people went out to indulge in some greasy goodness and order take out chicken wings, fries and soda
-Accounting exam was in a conference on an 80 foot long elliptical table, it was weird, but the chairs were so comfortable
-Surprisingly got an answer for every question, whether the work is right or not is another question. I was surprisingly calm compared to other people
-Went to the gym for one and a half hours, I erged, lifted and did some ab work. I felt less guilty about the chicken wings
-Came back and started my Business Stat homework over a Whiskey Palmer (1 part whiskey, six parts Arnold Palmer over ice, delish)
-Around 3:30 I was done with work and ate that second slice of pizza I bought while watching Good Eats on my computer, guilt came back haha
-Finally went to bed.

Yeah, so my weekend had quite a strange mix of activities but a boy's got to have some time. Work Hard, Play Harder, no? Tomorrow is my last day of classes before Easter break, mom's picking me up and then Thursday night I'm off to visit my friend Christine up in New York for a few days; it's going to be sick! I'm taking a bus but it supposedly has Wifi and that jazz but I'll probably just sleep. I just finished applying to work at a few local Starbucks' over the summer, their application was half resume stuff and half personality exam, makes sense since it's just an interaction-heavy job but still kinda weird. I also finished my app to be on the Board of Directors of a social entrepreneurship club on campus and signed up to be a move-in aid some fall which lets me move in early and beat the rush and a free T-shirt, score!

Other things making me happy - Glee is back tonight! Yes! I know what I'm doing tonight.

Have a good one guys,

JP

Halloween Weekend

Boys and girls of every age, would you like to hear something strange?

I had a good weekend.

I said it, I had what I would call a good weekend. Given it wasn’t glittery and perfect but the past few days have been good to me, and I’m feeling that much more buoyant as a result. My drive to write fizzled out for the past few days but now I’m back, and hopefully will return to a more regular schedule.

Thursday, I ended up coming out to about a dozen people in the course of an evening. I went to a gay club for their college night with a bunch of people from the first floor and by the end of the night, three people ended up coming up to me and asking if I was gay, promising myself at the end of senior year I would be honest if asked that question, I said yes every time. Apparently I was a topic of conversation on some cab rides back.

Am I glad I said yes? Well, I guess I should be. I want to be more comfortable with myself, to not try and have to hide everything, but even now, I feel hesitant to say one simple word. The fact that every time someone asked it was preceded by “Not to be offensive of anything….” or “I’m not judging you but…” made everything that much harder and that much worse. I know why they do that, that just in case, they don’t want to offend me, but in their attempts to be calm about everything I end up just being more stressed. Now though, I look back and feel a little more comfortable about saying what I did. It was hard, but it does show progress for me that I actually am becoming more comfortable with myself.

On Friday afternoon, I went trick-or-treating down on embassy row with friends and other people from my school. The promise of ethnic candies was for the most part a bust (exception: the three Korean embassies/cultural centers, they rocked and had Asian candy). It was a good time though, I got to meet up with my friend M who was visiting from Princeton for a conference this weekend and we had the best semi-reunion one could wish for in front of the embassy for Cote d’Ivoire.

Friday night I decided to stay away from Mark and give him his space as well as give myself some space. I went out with people from my old orientation group and we actually had a blast, probably one of the best nights I’ve had so far. Three of us were in costume, I was a masquerade baller, my OA friend was a flight attendant and her friend was a bunny (the playboy kind). We first got in to a sophomore/junior party thanks to the sweet talking of my friend and then later on to another party where I met this really cute guy from Georgia who was up visiting. His name my Taylor and his costume was “dick in a box” from SNL haha. We talked for a while but then me and my friends left. Finally, we hit up our old Orientation group leader’s apartment for a party he was holding and that was really cool as well since none of us had seen him in almost a month. When I got back to my dorm the scene wasn’t quite as pretty unfortunately, the guy Mark has been trying to get with drank too much and was sick and him and Maudry along with the first floor RA were attending to him along with many other people. It put a little damper on the evening overall but in full, it was a good night.

Given the festivities of Friday, I decided to take it easy Saturday. My friend D had a friend visiting from Cornell and with both D and her friend being international students, D’s friend wanted to see DC and all the monuments. We took her around DC, hitting up the Georgetown neighborhood, the national mall, the White House, down town and the Washington Monument. We spent an entire day out in the city and it felt great to just get around and walk. Plus, I got to see things I haven’t seen since I was in elementary school despite being a local, heck I don’t even remember seeing the White House in person.

After we sent D’s friend back to her bus stop, me and D headed back to campus. Earlier that day the Stephen Colbert and Jon Stewart rally was held on the National Mall and the metro was absolutely packed and delays were everywhere, it was miserable, but by that evening things had calmed down a bit. I had a movie night in Saturday, me and a few people watched Slumdog Millionaire in my room and had candy and chips. We went back down to the common room afterwards and chatted. It was a surprisingly calm evening for a Saturday and the regular drunken parade didn’t appear for the most part. Near 2AM, Mark arrives back with the guy he’s interested in and not to subtly intimates he was getting some that night. Given he isn’t out and that there were a number of us in the common room, I’m hoping it was the alcohol that made him to blatantly open in his intentions. When his roommate came back later, he told us he got a text from Mark saying he was “talking with a friend until three and needed the room”. Well another guy in the room called bullshit and ratted Mark out regarding coming back with the other guy. The first floor RA (who is openly gay himself) caught wind of this and asked Mark’s roommate if he was bi which he replied with a “I don’t know”. Now Mark and his roommate hadn’t been getting along very well since Mark accused his roommate of being gay (truthfulness unknown) and recent inflammatory statements about how straight guys shouldn’t go to gay clubs. Mark’s roommate decides to head back and wait outside the room before three to see what was going on. I fire Mark a text warning him which he got later and said all was fine and I also warned him about the loose-lipped guy in the common room. He was pissed saying the guy “didn’t know him” and the like and I tried to calm him down a bit but also told him that things have the possibility of getting complicated in the near future.

I hope he took everything I said seriously. He can blame it on the alcohol all he wants but if he really does want to remain in the closet he might need to do some damage control now or end up coming out under imperfect conditions. Hopefully the actual answer will be that this whole thing will fall off the face of the earth and he will have to do nothing except be more cautious. I was able to get his back this time, I don’t know if I will be there the next time.

I think I’m making progress in getting over Mark. While time definitely is a factor, I’ve been trying more to separate myself from his dramas and give him space as well as give myself more “me time”. My friend Anna said that the best way to get over someone is to fall for someone else, the only problem is, that despite there being more potentially available guys around me than ever, I can’t seem to find them. Maudry finds them in spades much to her displeasure but my luck is decidedly low.

This upcoming week looks relatively busy, I have a theology quiz tomorrow I need to study for, I have a tutorial paper I need to start along with a presentation I need to work on. Also, Tuesday is Election Day and I intend to vote for the first time back in VA for my House representative.

I hope you had a fun and safe Halloween weekend and be sure to get out and vote come Tuesday, you actually do make a difference.

All the best,

JP