So apart from telling my mom a few years ago, I have yet to come out to my family, and once again this year at Thanksgiving, I got a wonderful reminder of this from my cousins J and N. These two guys, my elders by about 10 years, are the two golden boys of the family (with me being the admitted rising third in family lore). They have made names of themselves at their jobs, make shit tons of money ($100K+ each) but still have not punched out any kids yet. Luckily, my aunts still think I'm young enough to not have to pester about getting a girlfriend but I can feel it coming like Lindsey Lohan can feel her next parole violation coming. Back on point though, Thanksgiving is the one time of year I get to hear J and N talk girls non stop for about 4 hours straight while I eat and awkwardly get pulled into conversation. This year however, I got pulled into conversation more than I was expecting, and I learned quite a few things about myself by bluffing my way through all the questions.
My kind of girl apparently...don't hate, Mila is hot as hell. (but more on that in a bit)
Here's a recap with all the fantastic terminology intact:
-I like girls for their legs rather than their ass or tits, but if I had to choose a second, I would take tits
-I much prefer brunettes but blonds aren't out of the question (mostly true in real life)
-I like preppy girls. not slutty and totally bangable Eastern European chicks
-I lost my virginity to a brunette (false, dirty blond) girl (false, boy) who was shorter than me (false, taller), had medium tits (N/A), was skinnier than me (false, but I'm on the skinny side), and was a "7" (I'll say True).
-I occasionally like sluts (I can be a slut myself at times)
-Mila Kunis is my type of Hollywood girl (She is hot a fuck though, I won't deny that one bit)
So yeah, fun stuff. I never knew I liked all these things but apparently I do. Granted I did have plenty of opportunities to say I was gay (including J saying how being gay is just fine in his books once during conversation) but I'd rather save that for another day. My cousins must have the worst gaydar ever.
I hope you guys had a wonderful Thanksgiving if you're from the states. I'll catch on more stuff soon, but right now my priority is to punch out a paper for that Personal Identity class that I lovehate with the deepest passions of my heart. Before I go though, can I say the movie Immortals is SICK. Me and a few of my Friends had a bros night out and saw the movie and it was so cool. Yeah, the ratings sucked but I can't say no to 1. Movies with a basis in Greek mythology, 2. violence and gore, 3. epic battle scenes, and 4. Kellan Lutz and Henry Cavill ('nuff said). If you're into movies like that like I am, I highly recommend it.
Also, another really hot guy, Grant Gustin, the guy who plays Sebastian, the new gay guy after Blaine on Glee is so freaking pretty it hurts. He needs more airtime. now.
Alright guys, enjoy the rest of your weekend. I'll try and get a full update on what's been going on in my life soonish. I promise.
Yikes, so first off, sorry for not posting in over a week. Professors have been trying to cram in as much crap before Thanksgiving break as possible so I haven't had time to post anything or catch up on the blogs I follow.
But....just because I've been busy doesn't mean things haven't been interesting. On the contrary, things have been really going crazy including how there is a guy in my life now....
But until I find actual time to write a legitimate post, I'll leave you with the best Thanksgiving wishes from me to you.
So I spent the better part of last night at a Grilling Society party with no pants on....and tonight, I'm going "bowling with the gays" on a University Pride organized group bowling trip...
...I plan on owning all of them hehehehe.
Actually having free time leads to such good life choices.
Also, I kinda like Jessie J's new single...it's a little too Katy Perry ish for my tastes but still quite catchy.
Jessie J - Domino
On another note, I had a dream all about Mark last night and not to get me wrong, it was a great dream but I'm baffled as to why he would feature as the "lead role" in one of my dreams at this time. I woke up this morning with a very strange feeling in the pit of my stomach, kind of a mix of confusion and nostalgia. I'm probably looking too deeply into it as I often do...
Any inputs and thoughts?
Also, I've been looking for some new workout songs. I've been cycling through essentially the same playlist for the past month and a half and I'm starting to get bored. I like newer music (post 2004) and something that I can blast and keep my energy up when running/erging/lifting etc. All suggestions are greatly appreciated.
Plase excuse my extravagant use of ellipses and the word "also" in this post, I really didn't feel like thinking of other transition words.
Royally screwed over by that MicroEcon midterm. And by "royally screwed" I mean I want to cry right now because I'm so fucking frustrated.
I studied for five hours a night for almost a week and none of the time and effort I put into it was worth it. Why the hell does my school take Microeconomics so seriously? It's supposed to be the joke basic-knowledge shit you take just because you need to fulfill some Liberal Arts requirement. I should have just taken it over the summer at my local State school and transferred the credit. Literally, it would have been the easiest "A" I ever would have received.
That point-buffer I built up from my first midterm is the only thing saving me right now.
Another installment of the "An Open Letter" series...
You really need to get a grip on the world around you. I don't think you realize this right now but the path you're on isn't going to lead you to anything good. First is your obsession to Jackass X who I've written about on this blog before; I don't know if it's because you're craving some power figure to cling on to or just because you're trying to use him to your own advantage, but you need to realize that he isn't on your side. He makes fun of you blatantly to your face but you're so blinded by your love and faith in this guy that you don't even realize it. He's a jerk, and you're starting to show his influence on you. You're lying, exaggerating to near hyperbolic levels and being the guy that no one likes, the same guy you were making fun of just a few months ago. Your obsession with trying to gain status is also approaching unbearable levels. Stop trying to get chummy with people just because you got the idea that they will nominate you for some award later on. What happened to you? You used to be such a nice, calm, collected guy. I liked you as a friend because we were similar for the most part, but now, I don't even know what to think. You're becoming uncomfortably desperate, and it shows.
You need to end this obsession with trying to get others to like you. I don't know if it's because you've been around Jackass X too much or because of some other weird issue you've been dealing with lately. We're all your friends, and we don't want to lose you over stupid reasons. Please, just chill out. I don't know who you think is watching you every minute of every day that you're trying to impress but I can guarantee that the reward is not nearly worth the work you're putting into keeping up this act.
Just talk to us, we're your friends and we'll listen no matter what.
The personal blog of a now recent college grad who successfully pushed through a business school curriculum and now is facing the "real world" with an actual big boy job. This blog follows the the joys, challenges, struggles, and surprises it presents to him, whether it be work, school, his peers, or the occasional rogue deer running into the road. Join Me, Won't You?
Maria - My best friend since kindergarden, I know almost everything about her and she about me. She was the first person I came out to and has been the rock ontowhich I go to when things get rocky in life. She's the only person I can actually speak completely open and frankly with. I don't know what I would do if I never met her all those years ago.
M - A girl I became friends with freshman year of high school, we've become very close friends and continue to be to this very day. We are surprisingly similar personality wise and value each other's opinion very highly. I can talk freely to M almost as much as I can with Maria. She currently attends an ivy-league university up north; I'm really glad we met all those years ago and can only imagine how my high school years would have turned out if we never met.
Miss X- Foodie, blogger, photgrapher, one of my best friends, and someone who can have a delightfully dry sense of humour. We met early on in high school and have been friends ever since. We often go on adventures accross NOVA with our little circle of friends which are occasionally recounted here on this blog.
Christine- Friends since we could barely ride half the roller coasters at theme parks, Christine is a magical being who is one of the few people I could and would talk about anything with for hours on end. She's currently spending much of her time in NYC though we still see each other very often. Her dramas sometimes make my drama seem like childsplay.
Mark -A former dorm mate, and now former crush. He came out as bi to me and Maudry one night which he has been increasingly comfortable with. He's tall, has short brown hair and used to play football. He's ambitious and looks to make a big impact in the world of Politics in the future. I have had a crush on him and we've gotten together a few times. I thought our relationship could have been something more, but in the end it will end up staying as a friendship. I hope only the best for him.
Liz - One of best friends at school. She's funny, charismatic and is someone who I can tell almost anything to. She's friends with Maudry, Mark and is part of the first floor crew who I love and frequently visited during my freshman year, we're still great friends today.
Matt - My now former love, hate, drug, everything. I met him back during my Sophomore year and the crush I developed on him that stuck for the longest time. He's tall, has brown blond hair and the rare but desirable "serious but funny" personality that makes me melt. He also has probably one of the best smiles of any guy I know. He was one of the captains of my high schools cross country team. For quite some time I've tried to end this obsession over him but everytime I seemed to make progress, I'd relapse. He's a great guy but in all liklihood he's straight.
Southern Charm (aka SC) - A guy on the crew team who had moved up from Florida during my senior year. He's charming, tall, and slim with brown slightly wavy short hair. When I first met him I got the thought that he might be gay, a thought I quickly suppressed. Since then, we had become pretty good friends. My friend Jess has a crush on SC. One evening on a car ride home, my friend Dutch told me she thought that SC might be gay, something I had repressed in my mind for months, but was pushed to the front of my mind again. He's now a freshman and is study engineering and comp sci in university.
Ben - A guy I had the pleasure of knowing for one of the best weeks of my life during a cruise over the summer. He's a bit shorter than me but was also a senior who runs cross country. We got to know each other pretty well and had many conversations during that week that I will probably never forget. He has brown hair and the most beautiful light brown eyes. I'm pretty sure he's straight but i couldn't help but get the feeling he could have been bi. He's mostly in my summer 2009 posts.
Dutch - My friend who I met during my junior year on the crew team. She's a fun great person to be around and is someone I could talk about anything with, especially during the private car rides back from practice. We both know of all the crew drama that goes on.
My Family - A network of people who I love with all my heart despite their nuances, quirks and often ridiculous practices. Apart from my mom, I haven't told anyone I'm gay and probably won't for a while. They're not ready for that and don't need the added stress.
Various Single Lettered Friends (L, T, K etc)- Friends I got too lazy to actually come up with an alias for (I gave up after five, how sad haha). They are usually someone from my close group of friends some of which I have come out to. We have a very mutually supportive relationship that fosters great bonds between us as a group.
**Names Changed to Preserve Anonymity**
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